Had the feeling a couple times last week that it was at the point of all the way now, one way or the other. No more middlin’ around. & Struggling. If I didn’t go good all the way & forever I’d go bad. All the way and forever. Criminal. Gunny. Remorseless disregard for all. Stealed and stealing. Maim. Kill…

A scary thought. A real thought. The stakes are high.