Mom was going to make potato cass. in slow cooker for Sun din. Didn’t. After walk, she went to church (trying nicely, lightly to coax me to go: “So you’re not going to church with me today?” No. “Alright; I’ll count on you next week then.” Smiles.) & I decided to pull my weight around here for once & make the dish. Felt good about that.

Lied down but felt twitchy & tired but not able to sleep well. Felt weird. Blamed on the Prozac. Took it Sat night thinking it made me drowsy but then read (for 1st time) docs witch said to take in AM. Switch did Sun.

Later as we ate it she said, “You look down in the dumps.”

“Having a bad day.”

“Because you want to use something?”

“I don’t feel good. & now we’re not getting internet.” (Were that morning; paid another $1,100 on Gator card; but that afternoon no more; straw on digital camel’s back.)

Went to free potty training dogs seminar & turned around & came back–changed mind–and Mom was on her knees cleaning dog piss out of the carpet.

Worked on internet prob some more thinking would break off for day & go to Mexican ice cream shop/heladaderia La Flor De Michoacan but didn’t say anything because not in talky mood.

Stopping pt. Tusseled w/ dog. Phone rang & knowing what a long ordeal that could potentially be, said, “Before you answer that, I’m going out, you need anything?”

“Where you going?”

“Flor De Michoacan.”

She looked a little blank maybe but phone was still ringing & I had mentioned the place & pointed it out a couple times befoe so I said, “Do you want anything?”

“No,” & answered phone.

La Flor closed but nearby DQ open. Mom likes root beer freezes so I got us both one (+ me a butterscotch cone) & me & Buddy back in no time.

“Place you wanted wasn’t open?”

“No. & didn’t go to place you thought I was either.” (Suspecting/assuming she’d worried.) Can’t remember what she said but I asked if she’d prayed for me while I was gone (because I saw bdrm lights diff. etc.) & she said, “Yes, as matter of fact I just got up from my knees.” Second time in one day I was the inadvertent cause of that. “I didn’t know where you’d gone.”

“I told you & you said ‘okay.’”

“You spoke some Spanish & left.”

“You said okay; why didn’t you say ‘what’?”

“I wish I had. I hung up & though what am I thinking? I don’t know where he’s gone.”

I kind of laughed & felt bad that she might think I was scoffing at her beliefs, which I didn’t want to do but I was also irritated by her lack of any faith in me or something so I didn’t say anything.